5/14/2008

Well ... FUCK

Hey yall.
Well, smart ol' me decided to come out to my family today... It went horribly. I felt like i was talking to two brick walls. I told my brother first, but in true fashion and the upmost proof of his being, he really didn't give a shit. I also told my parents that i'm sick of living in the house and that i can't spend another year here, but they don't understand, which is so funny because, when i was passing my exams it was " we can make a loan to pay for your studies ", now it's " you have to know what you want to do" and " you have to work for it and pay with your own money". As for the first, my dad doesn't support me becoming an artist for one second, which brings me down. He even brought up the fact the nobody pays for my art... which really hurt me a great deal.
I feel like i'm going throught my teenage years again, where nobody understands and i'm all alone. I've got no one to talk to... i just...
i never though i would cry for this shit again... i'm so sick of it...
I have no support... no one to talk to... nobody cares about me...
God Damn it !! I'm trying, why is everything always so fucked up with me !?

I'm young... but i just can't do this shit anymore...

I know coming out is always hard...

But how can i come out if there's no exit...